Current Ramblings
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
This isn't going to make a lot of sense. Whether it makes more or less sense because I am also violently multitasking remains to be seen.
I think I may have gotten to the bottom of my creative problems. I hope I have, because I need to create. I've gotten too sidetracked and I've been ignoring my muse. I don't know how I reached this point. I could get all introspective and try to blame it on all kinds of things. Goodness knows I could come up with enough possibilities: I've grown complacent with my lot in life, I've been through too many upheavals (I've learned that major sudden life changes, like moving, can disjoint stuff like that, like when I fell out of TFs in the first place), or maybe it was simply the upheavals that I've had to consider in my own creative work while I set things on the backburner and hold my breath, or the feeling that I can't go forward until I know how things are going to happen when they could take years to resolve. I could even blame other distracting muses, to whatever extent you can blame things who are not real. Maybe I was "growing up." Maybe it was a lot of different things all chipping away it. I hope I can hold on to this for more than a day or two. I hope that voice that was always the clearest in my head (yes, yes, head voices, but I mean the kind that are self-initiated by imagination, not the ones that come out of nowhere because you're psycho) is back to stay, because I need it. I'm not saying, "Oooo, I'm gonna write a big long story tonight!" I think I need to go back and immerse myself a little bit in my old stuff so I can remember what I was doing, to pick up where I left off in a manner of speaking. I need to try to anchor this while I have it. Maybe I'll go try to glue that figurine back together...
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